Evolution Growth Change
Looking back at my past life
Mistakes that seemed unforgivable
Crises that threatened to destroy everything
Or so I thought — My place in the world
And Universe — Now seem small and inconsequential
In retrospect — Except in how they shaped my evolution
And development as a human being
Small and large — Sometimes in ways that I only now
Understand and only partially grasp
I can’t blame anyone else but myself
Yet I can explain by describing how others
Might have been wrong, at least in regards
To what would be best for me — Yet who can say
How even the smallest changes in one life
Might positively or negatively affect the future
Present, now — A trillion trillion combinations
Of moments and choices over the course of human
History — And my own — Even if I have only lived
Once, my soul — There is almost an infinity of alternatives
Parallel courses of history, all existing simultaneously
Until the present moment — And choice — Love and life
Time — In my own life and the life of the world — Universe
Who can tell if I am not in fact better for all my mistakes
My parents, grandparents, ancestors from all over the world
The ambiguity and uncertainty in my own life and mind today, tonight
Might not be such a terrible thing after all — As long as it does not
Cripple, the door to the void open too much, more than just a crack
Some evolution along with the involution, meeting in the present moment
Future present for every living being sharing the world of possibilities
Growth and change, spiral life, and the arrow and circle of time
The maps in my head can be useful but discovery and exploration
Landscape of my mind and environment, greater and more wondrous
Than even my dreams — The maps help me when I get lost
Sometimes even helping me find the right path, or at least realize
I was on the wrong one in the past, and I can choose a different one
Perhaps even one from a long time ago, in the future past
That is yet new to me now — As long as I am moving forward
With an open heart and mind, in balance with my true self and the cosmos
Nature, love — The forces of order, chaos, and balance between the two
The Universe of Universes and the world we all inhabit, one of many
I am content and maybe even happy, for now — I must train myself
To be alright with the uncertainty and productive chaos of the world
That can be a blessing and not just a curse — As long as I keep
Trying to find some kind of order here, there — Truth within
Myself, if I have the right keys to understanding the all in all
The world and my place in it — Life continues ever onwards
As long as life continues on — And we learn from our mistakes
Become better stewards of the Earth and Air and Water — Soul
Of nature, fire of spirit — Humanity — We are only at the beginning
Of our history as a species, only limited by our imagination as a species
Imaginations or lack thereof — Our petty rivalries, ancient quarrels
Among groups of people, desire for power over others, outdated ideas
Ideologies of rigid control or complete freedom without consequences
No order at all — Out of balance with ourselves and nature
Yet we are learning — The old ways that no longer work fade away
With time and evolution of the human mind and spirit towards the source
Giving consciousness, room to new ways of organizing life and spirit
Some so old that they are completely foreign to us, some completely new
Ancient and future paradigms that can allow us to live in harmony
With ourselves and the Universe as one entity experiencing itself, ourself
Becoming aware of all aspects of existence and reality — Life and love
No greed or lust for power over one another and the planet
Belonging to the land, water, air, and sky, more than the other way around
Using our intelligence and wisdom to perform a sacred duty of helping
Life to flourish in ever more diverse and beautiful forms on Earth
And when we are ready, planets beyond our own solar system
Stars and galaxies far out in the infinite darkness, blue and white
Calling to us and keeping us company at night — Giving our sun a break
Dimensions and worlds within the deepest parts of our souls, of stars
And in the vast emptiness of space and time, yet almost bursting with light
Meaning and light even in the deepest darkness, the spark of life
Uniting and bringing together disparate individual souls
Throughout the Cosmic Ocean — Binding and bridging our Universe
With each part of itself, realities beyond this physical realm
Dimension, parallel universe — Doorways of consciousness
We can access with the right keys, and the knowledge of where they are
Awareness of the multiple forms of life, light, love everywhere
Inside us and outside our souls, all around us — Beyond
There is always more to discover and explore, always more
Beyond and within our own mind, body, and spirit — Our souls
Connected to the universal cosmic consciousness and awareness
